CIMDHOG

Step by step he felt himself drawing closer to the snapping point. His anxiety was getting the best of him. Focus was out of the picture as he hardly put his right foot before the left. The tension was rising like he had reached an unknown or invisible ultimatum. He felt his life drastically changing and all his efforts to pull it all together are shattering down to his feet.

This is it. This is the moment we’ve all earnestly worked hard and waited anxiously for its arrival. We’ve sacrificed our sweat, blood and everything in between to arrive at this moment in time. A moment of monumental victory. A time that would be imprinted into our minds and hearts as part of our footprints in time.

Would you live in a lonely cabin the woods with no electricity, no internet or any other form of civilization for 30 Days for One Million Dollars? If you had asked me this question prior to this moment, I would have given you an answer (which would have been a big and emphatic YES!) in a split question without missing a beat. 

Here I am again on the downward trend of my roller coaster ride of motivation. One moment I am bursting with the feel of motivation streaming through my veins, my neurons calculating and organizing the best laid plans for execution of goals. My inner self is restless and anxious about the execution process, my heart skims and tumbles as I replay the process over and over again in my head making sure everything goes exactly as planned. 

Do you have something to say? Yes I do have something to say but whenever I open my mouth to speak I get lost. Words shoot out of my mouth, i hear myself speak but the rationale behind each conversation always seem to evaporate.

I need a clear head. I need to start afresh. I have to toss away the old emotional baggage of yesterday that you have ladened upon me.

One, two, three.... Fifteen; I counted the ceiling tiles for the third time. For some strange and unknown reason I find myself in this predicament that has robbed me of my beauty sleep; I wonder why they call it beauty sleep.